Let's catch up a bit.

Okay, I have not gotten on here in months.. My mother-in-law (age 44) passed away in May and things just aren't the same. Its a challenge everyday to realize it really happened and to think of what she is missing out on. I was debating on if I should put the way she died or not on here, but I figure if I'm ever talking about this subject, it might make more sence. She committed suicide. She came over a few days prior to hang out with the girls (her granddaughters) and was at our house for quite a while longer than normal when she just stops by. But of course, we didn't think anything of it. I had talked to her the next day and she was really upset and basically just venting.. which everyone does that from time to time, so again I didn't think anything of it, just that she needed to get it out and we were close enough to where we could do that with each other. The day before it happened I was getting my hair done for the first time in months and I debated stopping on the way home to show her, but then decided no, I will bring the girls over in the morning after we go to the bank and post office. We would give her a nice surprise :)
But unfortunately I got a call while I was pulling out of the bank and it was my father-in-law, crying hysterically telling me she shot herself. And if any of you were to know her, your reaction would have been the same as mine.. I told him that's not funny, you shouldn't joke about things like that. He then told me know he isn't joking and to call Juston and tell him, I then was so unsure of what I just heard and immediately called and told Juston to get to his parents and I have no clue what is going on but your dad is freaking out, etc....

That was the worst day of my life.


But there's more..
Ill tell some happier times first.

August 29th (the day before my 25th birthday) Juston got down on one knee and purposed! Yes, he finally asked the big question, so we are officially engaged to be married on Feb 22 2015 :)
We celebrated my birthday from Thursday to Monday, every day doing something fun and different.
But unfortunately it turned bad for his sister, after we were out wine tasting. She ended up leaving her house after we got her home and she rolled her car and got her second DUI in under a 2yr period. She lost her mom, and now had to do 2 days in jail, pay $3000 in fine, and do all of those classes over.

November 4th. Her birthday, she would have been 45yr. That was a very hard day!

I was just informed last week about my great aunt's condition. She has cancer. She did the Chemotherapy and it was working for a little bit and then went to a stand still, so the Dr. took her off of it, and basically told her when your time comes, it comes. Well she has been falling randomly while walking lately so she went in and the took a scan of her brain and the cancer is everywhere now, and on top of that she has blood pockets as well which is the reason she has been falling they said.
Her Dr. told her that there is a good chance she will not make it past the holidays..

Her sister (My Grandma) needs a heart monitor put inside of her because two months ago she went in and found out her heart is only working at 30% and she has been blacking out due to it.

I feel so defeated.

Back at it!

So I feel slightly off track with my 30 day abs challenge. But never fear.. I am back on track. And will add the days I missed at the end.. I am keeping in the back of my head just how close summer is! And I will be so disappointed in myself if I don't get myself to a happy place by then (well.. happy about my body..) I have been keeping up walking 2 miles a few times a week, and am trying to add some cardio in the mix too, but I hate cardio!!

Schedule?.. Ha!

My plans for today were to go jog 2 miles, do my 300 ab challenge, go get the car washed and cleaned out, come home shower get the girls ready, go buy a car, get Juston a new phone, etc...... Well my poor baby (Amelia) woke up at 1am with a slight fever, I rocked her back to sleep and then I finally dozed off myself to wake up 2hrs later to her burning up! Her fever was very high. I finally broke it and we both went back to sleep around 8:30 this morning.. So my day now consists of walking around the house singing to my girl, lots of cuddles, play time with Reagen, medicine schedules, and diaper charts.. lol I truly love being a mom, I mean don't get me wrong, I don't look forward to sick days ever.. But I just love that they rely and need me so much. And to know I will always put them and their needs before mine, makes me so amazed at how good of a mother I am. Especially seeing how other parents treat their children, I am so glad to have the head I have on my shoulders!

Peanut Butter Granola

Yum!!

1/4 cup creamy peanut butter
1/4 cup honey
1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon vanilla
1 cup old fashioned oats
1/2 cup chopped pecans or other nuts (optional)

Preheat oven to 325 degrees. Lightly spray a cookie sheet with cooking spray and set aside. Combine peanut butter and honey in a medium bowl and microwave about 20 seconds, until peanut butter melts. Stir to combine. Add in cinnamon and vanilla, stir again. Add oats and pecans and stir till oats are completely coated with peanut butter mixture. Spread out on prepared cookie sheet. Bake for 10-15 minutes until granola starts to brown. Remove from oven and let cool completely. Store in airtight container.

Cardio Challenge?

I just got done with my 300 for today, and feel great! Don't get me wrong I can feel it, but I am changing my body and that feels good! I am very excited I am still doing this, because I was alittle unsure when I decided to try the challenge.. Now I just need to set a cardio challenge!! Luckily I am enjoying my walks/running I've been doing, and should probably start riding my bike again!
Me and my oldest are going around Glendoveer today, so that will be another 2 miles.

If any of you have any good ideas for a cardio challenge, or have tried ones that work please let me know!!

Happy Blogging!!

300/30 Day Ab Challenge

I have started my own 300/30 Day Ab Challenge!

Basically, I started on January 30th and have been doing 300 ab workouts per day. An example would be: 25 sit ups, 25 left crunches, 25 right crunches, 50 bicycles, 25 Russian twists, 50 crunches, 25 reverse crunches, 25 in & outs, 50 Russian twists.. and then the next day do another 300 but mix it up.

The first two days I was alittle sore the next day, but to me, when you can feel the burn while working out, or are alittle sore after or the next day that lets me know I am changing how my body looks.. which is the point.
I am also doing leg workouts throughout the week, and 2-4 days a week I go walking around the golf course, which is two miles.
At the end of my 30 days I will post a before and after, to see how well it works, fingers crossed that I get a good result!!!

Bust: 36.25
Waist: 36
Mid: 42.75
Hip: 42.75

Stay in touch to check on my process :)

Happy Blogging!!

Sleeepy Mama.

I am lacking sleep like no other...... My oldest is sick with a viral infection, with blisters on the back of her throat.. so that should explain it right there. She had not eaten any solid foods for over 24hrs (which the Dr. said was normally for a child with this virus) And of course knowing I have a 2 month old, makes it that much better.
Luckily tonight for dinner my baby girl started to finally eat alittle bit of solid food! I was so happy :) That means she is slowly feeling better, which makes me feel better! It is so heart breaking when your little ones are sick..

Hopefully tonight we All sleep good ;) <----- Wishful thinking!